Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Well it's a new year and as happy as I am to see the last year put behind us I am almost terrified of the year to come.  We need a miracle, I have friends that need miracles.  These aren't small little glitches we are facing, these are life altering mountains and deep, black valleys we are going through.  I have a dear friend that has had to deal with the recurrence of cancer in her son, I have talked about the Everaards before, they are dealing with a double dose of sickness.  Doug's mom had breast cancer several yrs ago and it is back and metastasized to her liver, and Gray has had to go back in for a surgery and we are all pleading with God to let it be nothing.  My step dads mom had a kidney removed last yr  because of cancer and it is back, it is every where, they think even in her bones, they have given her 6 months to a year.  I have another friend that had to have surgery awhile back and then had to have tests right before Christmas, I don't know yet how that went.  Then there is this hideous disease that Scott is fighting, so you see what I mean when I say we need miracles.  Earlier I got a message from a friend that said she can't quit crying, that she is tired of her friends hurting, I told her I know, I am worn out and a scripture ran through my mind... it is the second one in the list but I couldn't remember exactly where it was in Psalms so I just searched for worn out and got all 3...
  1. Job 16:7
    Surely, God, you have worn me out; you have devastated my entire household. 
  2. Psalm 6:6
    I am worn out from my groaning. All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears.
  3. Psalm 69:3
    I am worn out calling for help; my throat is parched. My eyes fail, looking for my God.
     
Now I read those and I thought about this, no matter what is going on, no matter how bad it has gotten or how bad it gets, God is still God, I know this to the core of my being!  There are people that will blame God for all of these things and people that don't believe, or will stop believing but I will NOT stop, I will not give up, I will not cave in to the lie satan tries to make us believe...  I may be worn out and cry all night long, but joy comes in the morning!  Ps 30:5  ...weeping may remain for a night, but joy comes in the morning.
Is 43:18,19  18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.

I have used that last scripture before, if you have followed the blog you may remember it.
I have said before that I don't know how people survive these kinds of things without a relationship with Christ, without Christ there is no hope...  without Jesus I am empty, I couldn't survive a day without Him and I've tried, believe me, I tried hard.  So I guess what I'm saying is that as hard as all of this is, without Jesus I think I would give up and die, period. 
So, for this moment my throat may be parched from groaning but I refuse to stop believing in and waiting for miracles!!!  I will shout unto the Lord!!!  I will sing a new song!!!  My joy WILL come!!!  My God shall supply ALL my needs!!!  No matter what life throws at me I will with Christ's help overcome ALL adversity!!!