Thoughts...

I have some things on my heart that I feel I need to share...

With Scott going through this I often think of death and life, happiness and what happiness is.  
First let me say that through all of the things we have been through over the last 4 years and watching from a distance what the Everaards went through, the question in my mind has been "were some of us born just to die?".  Today while brushing my teeth I was thinking on all of these things and it dawned on me that Jesus Christ was born to die...
So my next thought is this, without pain & trials we don't need God, and let me tell you, we NEED God!!!  If you don't have a real, honest, deep, personal relationship with Christ then you aren't truly happy.  Don't bother to argue with me, stop and think about it how happy are you, really?  True happiness isn't that giddy feeling you get when you think you're falling in love or that high you feel from drugs or alcohol a win at the casino or even just having having every thing you thought you ever wanted.  True happiness is a contentment so deep that when your entire world is shaken to the very core you can still say "yes, circumstances suck, but life is good" it's a peace that you have that even when your loved ones are attacked with sickness you can say " nevertheless, God is still God".  These horrible, god awful events that happen in our lives draw us closer to God, we must depend on Him to give us peace and strength to get through not each day but sometimes just the next 30 seconds!  I feel I need to say something here, I am happy, not the bouncy, giddy, isn't life grand kind of  feeling, I have a deep abiding contentment in the knowledge that life is a gift, each nano second that you draw breath is a gift, to you and the people around you!  God gave you that gift, don't waste it wondering why these things happen to good people, they just do, period.  Don't blame God because He is not the author of  pain and sickness, we live in a fallen world and until such time as God chooses to end this fallen world there will be pain and the only true relief from such deep seeded pain is that peace from a relationship with Christ...

He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength. Isaiah 40:29

God is the source of all energy, in the sun, in plants and in people. When you maintain fellowship with Him, He will pour new energy and strength into you. You will feel it physically, emotionally and mentally.