Thursday, May 23, 2013

Today...

  Yesterday was a busy day for me, Caleb had a Dr.s appointment at 1:20 and I had to have my dad at his  Dr appointment at 3!  While getting ready it dawned on me that the date was the 21st which marked the 8 month anniversary of Scott's home going.  It's hard to believe it's been 8 months.  Last week mom and I went out and put new flowers on Scott's, Betty's and my grandparents graves and this week I will go to my great grandparents and put theirs on.  I never used to visit the graves, not until Scott's mama passed and it became important for me to make sure someone was looking after them and I go visit Scott a lot more than I thought I would.  I just figured since I know where he is that I wouldn't feel the need to go but I do.  I go talk to him, he was always pretty quiet, that hasn't changed! =)   
  My dad had to be back at the Dr.s office this morning for blood work and when he finished he stopped  by for a bit and we wound up going to Lowes.  Now I'm pretty sure I've said before that that was one of me and Scott's favorite dates, well one of mine anyway.  We would go to Lowes and then to the convenience store, Scott would get a cherry coke from the fountain (because he could add as little or as much as he wanted) and a bag of peanuts and I would get a 20 oz bottle of Coke, and sometimes he would get me a candy bar.  So today I took my dad on that same date (I even got a bag of peanuts), but after we left the store we went out to see Scott, daddy hadn't seen his headstone yet so we went to visit.  Then this afternoon I started mowing (ran out of day light), that was something else Scott enjoyed.  He said it was how he relaxed, I understand, it's just me and my thoughts.  I miss him...  Each day gets a little easier but there are so many times that I want to ask him a question or tell him something and can't.  I miss the Scott before ALS, but I also miss the Scott with ALS.  Before he was so serious, with he couldn't hide his smile, he had an awesome smile!
  I guess there isn't much new, Caleb had his 3 month check up last month and every thing looked good.  He'll go back in July and if that one is all clear then he will start going every 6 months, which is awesome!!!  In November he will be off treatment for 4 years.  It seems like yesterday most of the time.  He has grown so much!  He is 6 ft tall now!  He'll be 17 before I know it and then grown and out the door!  Where does the time go?

    Nehemiah 8:10
    Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.” 

  

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